A Recalibration.

May 25

I’ve been on the verge of tears lately at the site of seemingly every beautiful thing I encounter.
Which is a little strange for me.
Because I can tell you this:

It’s not PMS. (too much information?)
And I’m for sure not normally someone to get teary eyed watching a sunset.

But, recently, all of these beautiful things are starting to set me off.

I saw a photograph of my dear love-ahs Lex & Josh today. He flew to her. All the way down in Honduras- just to see her face and be with her for a little short while. He so loves her. And at that encounter my throat choked up and my forehead crinkled. #whatishappeningtome?

I don’t work well past 10 o’clock usually. Especially if it’s anything to do with a deadline. Anytime past ten is when I lose all perspective on time and become convinced I can never EVER sleep again because I have entirely TOO MUCH elephant to eat (you know, eat the elephant one bite at a time?). Everything my mother ever taught me about eating elephants flies out the door when nighttime comes.


Tonight, I continued working past pumpkin hour on some LONG overdue prahm photos. Starting to recognize the heightened sense of irrationality over taking me, I felt myself becoming so unsatisfied with everything I was doing because,

it didn’t look like ___________’s photos. (and if no one ever told you, comparison KILLS)

At the peak of this dissatisfaction, I came to this photograph.

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It stopped me in my tracks.
And my throat started to tighten up.

Because this photograph,
Freezes everything that she is to me.
This beautiful weathered soul that still radiates a thirst to LIVE and to love.
Undoubtedly she has been scarred and tossed around as we all have, but in this moment.
Even if just for a few seconds.

She was happy.

And her happiness brings life to me.
It always has.

One of the most loving and compassionate souls walking on this planet.

This is why I believe in what I do. To stop time for moments like this and forever freeze a loaded moment that flits to quick for you to be able to truly revel in all that it is. And to be honest, I’ve been loosing sight of it a lot lately.

With tears dripping down my face as I write this, I’m alright with it. I’m taking it as a sign that my heart is so longing to encounter deep, deep beauty and revel in it. So revel I will.

Thanks for the recalibration of heart Jesus.

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